Post Surgery (02/08/2014 Update)

Well I’m typing in this update from my I Phone. The surgery was a success. The doctor told me he looked all through my abdomen and did an ultrasound of the liver. Only the single tumor was found and removed. No need to remove my gallbladder either.

Once again the epidural is working some magic — no pain. I have been extremely tired and still haven’t walked yet. I did get up and out of bed for a bit. And that felt good to do.

My wife Connie and brother George went to eat lunch so I thought I would use this quiet time to post this quick update.

Thank you all for the power prayers and positive energy. Please keep the prayer power flowing, it truly does make a difference.

I really want them to remove the drain from my stomach. It is very uncomfortable and it’s hurting my throat but I know they will do what’s best.

All the nurses and aids are awesome and we are being treated very nicely. And I think I received a frequent flyer perk – I’m in my own room.

God bless you all.

Your brother in Christ.

Philip

Surgery Tomorrow, 1PM (02/07/2014 Update)

I didn’t sleep as long as I would have hoped for. Woke up around 3am and laid in bed with visions of surgery dancing in my head. I worked a long day yesterday trying to prepare for another absence from work. And on my drive home yesterday and again this morning my thoughts were taking me to some slippery slopes.

As I was reflecting I couldn’t help but wonder how fast this surgery has come up. They say “time flies by when you are having fun.” Well I must be having a lot of fun because the time seems to be rolling by too quickly.

When I was young, a year seemed sooo long. Now the years seem to go by in the blink of an eye. And I think that fighting cancer may actually increase this perceived acceleration of time — exponentially.

I celebrated fifty years at the end of January and now I’m wondering how long I have left. Am I living the final chapters of my life? And on the day before another surgery I worry it could be the final paragraph of the last chapter.

But then comes the morning light. The realization. None of us know when the end will come. And ultimately it’s not about me. It’s about Jesus and his plan.

The Lord does have a plan for each of us. And while we may not know how the plan will unfold we can be sure of one thing. It is a perfect plan.

In my career I’ve done a fair share of planning. And I have to admit that the execution rarely unfolded as envisioned. If I could be sure of one thing it was that the actual would NOT go according to plan.

But I know that Jesus’ plan is perfect. More perfect than we could ever imagine it to be. I know that the Lord will guide me as I walk through this valley. I may not see the extents of our Lord’s master plan but one day, when I meet him face to face, I will surely marvel in the beauty and magnificence of it.

For now I simply have to trust in the Lord and take life one day at a time. To focus on the here and now (as an angel pointed out to me not too long ago). To keep a good perspective. And to love and cherish each soul that I meet along the way.

Isn’t that the point of life? To enjoy our time together now. Enjoy today. While we are here together. Cherish each other.

The song Today comes to mind. This was a very powerful song in my younger days and it is equally powerful “today.”  The lyric I love best is:

“A million tomorrows shall all pass away, ere I forget all the joy that is mine today“

So once again, I request your prayers for my family and me. As we go into another battle with this cancer. Please pray for Dr. Knol and his team, that our Lord may guide him in his work. And for my wife, that she may continue to find strength and peace throughout this journey. And for my children, that they may continue to grow in faith and love, knowing Jesus is here for them.

And please be assured that I too will pray for you.

May God bless you and keep you! And may his light shine down upon you and overflow your heart with love, life, and happiness.

Sincerely,
Philip

Surgery Number 6 (01/30/2014 Update)

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

As many of you know, Monday was my 50th birthday. I received a multitude of calls, text messages, and Facebook posts, and cards. Thank you for the well wishes! I am truly grateful for having so many family and friends in my life.

One of the calls I received on Monday was not a birthday call. I didn’t expect to hear from Dr. Krauss until our scheduled appointment later in the week. So I was caught off-guard when he called to discuss the scan results with me. He was quick and to the point. The scans did reveal another tumor in my liver. The good news is that there was no other sign of cancer in any other organs and the tumor is near the surface of the liver and operable. He explained that he was referring me to Dr. Knoll, a liver surgeon at UMHS.

Today we met with Dr. Knoll to discuss liver surgery. He explained the procedure and left us feeling comfortable that we are in good hands. Surgery is scheduled for Friday Feb 7.

The hospital stay is expected to be six days. And, if all goes well I should be able to work from home couple weeks thereafter.

The Lord does have a plan for me and for each of us. And it is the very best plan there is. And therefore I am at peace with these challenges.

And once again I request that you please keep me and my family in your prayers. And I pledge to keep you ALL in my prayers as well.

Sincerely,
Phil

I don’t worry o’er the future,
For I know what Jesus said;
And today I’ll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.
—Stanphil

#Fifty (01/19/2014 Update)

It’s been a little while since my last update. And since I’ve had a few people ask how things are going I thought I should take a moment to provide you all with a quick post.

I am feeling Excellent!

The colon resection surgery on 12/2 was a success! I’m back to work full time and haven’t felt this good in quite a while. Not having chemo since September 26, 2013 certainly has a lot to do with this. A very successful surgery was also key. And spending time with my family and friends over a very beautiful Christmas and New Years was just the right medicine! Even the neuropathy in my feet (which I thought might be permanent) seems to be fading.

Dr. Regenbogen reported that the surgery was complicated. And he appeared exhausted as he gave my wife and sister a post-op update. And what an update. No ileostomy bag was needed. The tumor was removed with clear margins. The pain was very well managed. And the recovery was smooth sailing. The hundreds of prayers from all of you were definitely answered!

THANK YOU Jesus! THANK YOU Dr. Regenbogen and UMHS Staff! Praise be to God!

 And now my hope is that the Lord heal me completely from this cancer.

Dr. Krauss, my oncologist at UMHS, described my case as analogous to playing a game of whack-a-mole. That every time we whack a mole another one seems to pop up. That is every time we surgically remove a tumor another tumor is found. And now that we’ve completed “level 5” with this fifth surgery we are hoping/praying that we have whacked the last mole. However, if another mole does pop up, well we’ll whack away again. We will continue fighting because that is what we do!

The last CEA test, done on January 2, was 3.0. As you all may recall, CEA is a protein that is in our blood.  Increasing CEA levels is commonly associated with colon cancer activity, so this is something we watch very closely from month to month.

While a CEA of 3.0 is within the normal range we were hoping that it would have been lower. The fact that it was up from the previous tests is somewhat concerning. Raises in CEA could indicate more tumor activity. And so we have scans scheduled for January 24, 2014. And the scan results will be reviewed on Thursday, January 30, 2014.

In addition to the follow-up on the colorectal cancer we also had follow-up completed for testicular cancer. Per an ultrasound done on December 12 a cystic focus was discovered on my left testicle. This could be nothing but this will need to be monitored. Another ultrasound will also be done on January 24 to check on this concern as well.

As I have reported in the past. One of the biggest issues with fighting cancer is the anxiety roller coaster. Anxiety slowly increasing as tests approach. Anxiety peaking as we wait to hear results from tests. And the lows if the results are not what we were hoping for…

My fiftieth birthday is on January 27 and I’m hoping for the best birthday present in my life… E.g. a lower than 3.0 CEA (go down NOT up) and CLEAR scans! When I arrive at my January 30th appointment I hope Dr. Krauss will have a package of good news wrapped in green ribbon with a beautiful bow. Lord, please give me some good news this year.

The bottom line is that God has a plan and I must trust in this plan. And I am so very grateful that all of you are part of this plan as well.

THANK YOU for your continued prayers and support. You are all amazing and beautiful people and I am so very lucky to have you in my life.

May the risen Lord bless you all and fill your hearts with his immeasurable Love!

Sincerely your brother in Christ,

Philip

Do you believe?

I was wondering how many of you believe in Santa? For those of you that do believe I say hurray! For those of you that don’t believe I offer my story below and hope that it might challenge your thinking and open your mind.

Yes, it’s hard to believe in things we don’t see. How can it be? If we can’t see it or feel it? It must not be real? However, I propose that our very existence is certainly based on many things we can’t see. A simple example is oxygen. Certainly we can’t see oxygen; yet without it we would not be living!

So take a deep breath and ponder as you exhale this life-giving, unseen element…

My story begins a long time ago, when I was in grade school. I honestly can’t remember if it was second, third, or maybe fourth grade. But I remember in detail the rest of the story.

As fall was passing and winter was on the horizon I started early. I started telling my father and mother that I wanted a guitar for Christmas. Now remember that I was one of seven children. And my father was an hourly worker at the J.L. Hudson’s company. He made a modest income but extensive Christmas shopping was beyond his budget.

Those that know me remember one of my stories about Christmas. One year I remember waking up extra early; excited to open presents on Christmas morn. And I was too excited to wait for everyone else so I decided to carefully open my gifts. I could always rewrap them and no one would know. I carefully peeled back the tape so they could be rewrapped without giving away the secret. And I remember two of the few presents that I received that year. For some reason this memory burned into my mind.

One of the presents was the top of pajamas and another was the bottoms. I’m sure this was done out of love; wanting to make sure I had many gifts to open. However; on that early Christmas morning the realization of just how poor we were sunk into my mind…

Forgive me for regressing. This was not the story I wanted to tell. The real story is about the guitar…

I was very diligent about asking for the guitar. I wanted Santa to bring me a guitar for Christmas that year. I wanted to learn how to play and sing. Like Sister Johnathon at our school.

Sister M. Johnathon was the guitar-playing, singing nun at Patronage of St. Joseph. She taught us songs and had the entire class singing praise to God. And I wanted to learn how to sing like her. And I remember asking her (before I had a guitar) if she would teach me how to play. And she said as soon as I get a guitar she would give me lessons.

My mother was careful in how she talked about Santa that year. I remember her hedging; saying that a guitar would be great to have; but sometimes we don’t get everything we want for Christmas. I’m sure she was trying to manage my expectations as she didn’t want a disappointed son on Christmas day.

As the Christmas was fast approaching; I never gave up on the guitar. I really wanted this one present!

My mother continued to caution me that we don’t always get what we want. That sometimes we have to wait for things that we want. But my father told me that if I truly believe than I will get the guitar. He told me that Santa would see to it.

That December our class took a field trip to Madonna College. We were going to the college for a Christmas party. When our school bus unloaded we met up with the college students. And so it wasn’t long before two students (who I never met before) met up with me. They were my hostesses for the party. And after my fellow students paired up with their sponsors we were led into a gymnasium. In the gym were boxes of gifts scattered around the large floor. The two women led me to the center of the gym and there was a box for me. And in the box was a guitar. I don’t remember the other gifts in the box but I remember the guitar. And I remember how happy I was to receive it.

Santa delivered! And I didn’t even have to wait until Christmas. I was one happy boy that year. I received the one gift that I most wanted. And I remember when we returned to school; with guitar in hand I went to Sister Johnathon and told her I was ready for lessons.

Sr. Johnathon taught me how to play. And the guitar changed throughout the years but the gift from that Christmas stayed with me to this day. And the songs that Sr. Johnathon taught me have stirred my soul. And this continues to be among the most valued blessings I count.

Maybe we can’t see him. Maybe he doesn’t drive a sleigh with eight tiny reindeer. But that doesn’t mean Santa doesn’t exist! The spirit of Christmas is about giving. And about loving. And about receiving. And about BELIEVING!

May the spirit of Christmas be with you this season! And I hope you BELIEVE!

Update on Recovery

I’m still at home recovering from the surgery. And I’m doing very well. I know the hundreds of prayers were heard by our Father and he is working some healing magic in me.

THANK YOU all for your support and prayers.

And know that I am praying for each of you as well.

Sincerely,
Phil

Surgery Update (12/03/2013 Update)

I went into surgery around 1:50pm yesterday. The surgery was completed around 6:00pm. Dr. Regenbogen reported that it was a difficult surgery but it was successful.

I’m now resting as well as possible in the hospital. The goals for today are to start a clear liquid diet, to walk three times, and to sit in a chair 3 times. Pretty lofty goals. Haha.

I will slowly transition into a regular diet and to oral pain medication over the next days. I’m not looking forward to the pain medication switch because it just doesn’t compare to the epidural.

Thank you all for the many prayers and notes of encouragement! Connie and I are very appreciative of your support!

Love and light to you all!

Philip

Surgery Tomorrow (12/01/2013 Update)

My surgery will be at 1pm tomorrow (Monday 12/2). I know many of you will be praying for me and I want you to know that my family and I are very grateful for your support. My wife Connie will post an update sometime Monday evening letting you all know how the surgery went.

I wanted to give you this short update on the time of my surgery and I will also take this opportunity to share this experience with you…

I had two pre-op appointments on Tuesday, 11/19. So I left my house that Tuesday morning headed to Ann Arbor. I had a half cup of coffee when I entered Eastbound I-94. It wasn’t long before my mug was empty. And so I started to debate with myself on whether to stop or not stop [for a refill]. Finally I gave in, taking exit 145 in Jackson I headed to the McDonalds. I went through the drive through and ordered a small coffee and small water.

As I approached the I-94 entrance ramp I noticed a man hitchhiking. I drove by him and went a few hundred yards before deciding to give him a ride. Something made me think of the Good Samaritan story in the bible and I didn’t want to be the one who passed by the person in need. So I stopped and proceeded to drive in reverse on the shoulder of the road. When I was close enough to the hitchhiker I stopped and honked the horn.

He turned and saw I was waiting for him and as he came towards the truck. He looked like a homeless man. He was bearded, wearing a thick old coat, standing over 6 foot tall. He opened the rear door to the truck and placed his backpack onto the rear seat. He then opened the front passenger door and climbed into the seat.

He smiled as he said “Sorry but I didn’t hear you stop.” I was thinking to myself “that’s because I didn’t stop” as I smiled back at him and said “no problem.”

I noticed he was missing some teethe and his face was weathered and worn. He said “as far as you can get me to Ann Arbor will be good.” I told him “you’re in luck, I’m going to Ann Arbor so I can take you all the way there.”

And so we started down the entrance ramp onto I-94, heading east towards Ann Arbor Michigan.

After entering the highway I realized my wallet was sitting in a cup holder next to my coffee and water, along with my phone. I couldn’t help but worry that I really should have put it in my pocket before picking up this guy. I was seriously afraid that he might take my wallet and phone. As he started to talk any fear I had was replaced with intense curiosity.

I don’t remember all the different scriptures he spoke but as we conversed he effortlessly weaved the word of God into our conversation. I was very impressed with how articulate this homeless man was. He obviously had a photographic memory of the bible. When he spoke it was as if he was reading the passages word for word.

He told me he was coming home from Cadillac. I mentioned that I had a friend who was a fireman in Cadillac and he said he likes firemen. I asked him what he went to Cadillac for. He said that he was almost home but God told him to continue on to Cadillac, and so he went. He mentioned that he had “health concerns” and the wanted to get to Cadillac before he couldn’t go. I believe he quoted Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me” at this point in the conversation.

I asked him if he grew up in Ann Arbor and he told me that he grew up in Detroit. I mentioned that I also grew up in Detroit, near Conner and Gratiot. He said he knew the area well. He said that he bounced around Detroit, living on the East Side and West Side. And now his home was in Ann Arbor.
I mentioned that was a long way to hitch hike and he informed me that he actually walked a large portion of the way, pointing out that US 131 is one of the few highways that you can actually walk on.

I asked him what he did during the terrible storm that passed through Michigan a day earlier. He said he stayed in Marshall. He proceeded to describe the wrap-around porch at the Highlight drive-in restaurant. He said he took shelter in a corner of the porch. And as he prayed during the storm he couldn’t help but think about the storms mentioned in scripture, heralding the next coming of Jesus.

I asked him how he knew the bible so well and he told me that the scripture is always with him, everywhere he goes. He proceeded to take a little hand-held bible out of his pocket.

I offered him the small water from McDonalds. He said thanks but he wasn’t thirsty. He said he was watching his water and food intake. He said life on the road can be tough sometimes but he never worried because God saw to his provisions. This conversation ended up moving into a conversation about the apostles and their lives on the road. I mentioned something about John the Baptist living in wilderness and how tough that life must have been. He said “John actually ate very well. He had locust and honey for dinner.” He went on to say “Locust and Honey is very delicious; a little crunchy but very good.”

I mentioned that I had to stop for Gas but was waiting to get to Ann Arbor since gas was lower there. He asked me how I knew the gas was lower there. I pointed to my phone and explained about an app called “gas buddy.” He said to not trust machines and that gas buddy was wrong this time. He also said that the average gas price that they publish in Michigan is lie.

At one point I mentioned that I was going to Ann Arbor to be treated for cancer. He then told me that he had cancer too. As we talked about dealing with cancer I mentioned that sometimes I feel like I’m living on borrowed time and that I had to make my time count. He acted puzzled and said that he was confused by this expression “borrowed time.” He said “You can’t borrow time because you can’t pay it back. Time is a gift. We didn’t ask for it but we are given it nevertheless.”

I said something about our time on earth being a brief time in comparison to eternity in heaven. And that we had to live with a focus on eternity. He disagreed with me, saying that we must focus on the here and now. He explained that we can make a difference in the here and now and this must be our focus as we live out each day.

When I went to drop him off in downtown Ann Arbor he leaned towards me placing his hands on my shoulders. And he said a prayer and blessing, calling me brother. As he was exiting the truck I grabbed my wallet and took out a ten dollar bill. I extended it to him. He said that wasn’t necessary. I practically insisted that he take it. I asked him to please have lunch on me. He finally smiled and took the small gift.

I then proceeded to my appointment and continued to wonder about this person throughout the rest of the day. The next morning I told my wife about him when we woke. I later told a colleague at work about him as well. They both insisted that I picked up an Angel.

I’m not sure he was an Angel but I am sure he was God’s messenger. And his faith and knowledge of the scripture certainly left an impression on me.

By the way, he was right about the gas prices in Ann Arbor. Gas Buddy was wrong that day.

Thank you for your prayers and support. And I pray that Father God bless you and keep you in safety and fill your hearts with love and joy as you embrace this day!

Sincerely,
Philip

When you look at others with their lands and gold,
Think that Christ has promised you His wealth untold;
Count your many blessings—money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven nor your home on high. —Oatman

Count your many blessings and you’ll soon lose count.

Surgery Scheduled (11/14/2013 Update)

  Prayers Requested

I met with a surgeon and the surgery is scheduled for 12/2 (most likely in the morning).  I am going for the pre-op physical on 11/19. The surgery will be four hours. I will be in UMHS hospital for 3 to 7 days depending on how well I heal / recover.  I will then have about a 3 to 4 week recovery period once returning from the hospital. We are all in good spirits and have high hopes that this surgery will leave me cancer-free!

Please pray with us up to and on this date for a successful surgery and a full remission.  And post this date for a successful recovery.

And as usual – THANK YOU for all your prayers and support. Please know that my family and I appreciate you tremendously. God has surrounded us with Love! And special thanks to my co-workers for their prayers and support. You all make our organization a very great place to work!

May the risen Lord be with you today and every day, overflowing your heart with Love such that you may share his message with many others along your path. And may your days be filled with countless blessings from heaven above. This I pray in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen

Sincerely,

Philip

Another surgery (11/04/2013 Update)

The biopsy results are in – It is cancer. An appointment with a surgeon will be scheduled soon. There is a possibility that the surgeon will want radiation treatment as prep for surgery.  If radiation treatments are preferred the surgery will be a couple months out. If radiation treatments are not needed the surgery will be scheduled as soon as possible.

As usual, thank you all for your prayers and support.  And may God Bless you all with Love and Light today and always!

Love,

Phil

Ultrasound Results (11/01/2013 Update)

Update

Yesterday I went in for the ultrasound.  This test confirmed a mass in the location where the uptake was detected on the PET scan. A biopsy was done and results from the biopsy will be reviewed with my oncologist on Monday.  The mass could be a recurrence of the colon cancer or it could be an adenoma granulation tissue (not cancer).  The biopsy will let us know which it is. Thank you for all your prayers and support.

Today is new day; And a new month

Thank you Lord for the countless blessings you bestow on us!

 Let us sing “Praise to God” with all the Saints in Heaven! 

Love and Light to you all!

Philip